Define Me

It's been a random, heartache feeling this last two months.I've no words to define how i'm feeling right now. Close, trustworthy friends seems to grow cold towards each other, unlikely not so close friends' seems to be my best bud now.I'm kinda sad of how things are right now, i'm finding it so hard to just share my thoughts and problem with my close friends . But little did i know, a person which we hardly seen each,which we only chat through msn turns out to be the solution to my problems.We started through MSN, then 'texting of messages' and eventually to phone calls. We spend hours and hours talking on the phone non-stop, relieving our hurts and pains in our hearts, sharing out the joy and happiness we go through each day and whatever that comes through our mind we just speak it out.
But sometimes things just doesn't go as seems you've plan . We're not allow to contact each other anymore. Jealousy and betrayal maybe the cause of all things to happen, but what much can i do about this, I'm just a 17 year old student who's gonna sit SPM this year. Why does everyone thinks, it's okay to set up false pretense and apologizing later, what are the motives?is it to get what you want and how things you wish they were? i seriously dunno...I'm not God to know all things, but i do know that hurting someone will leave a deep scar, a scar which pain and sorrow just doesn't go a day or weeks but it'll take a long time to get yourself up and move on.
Well, maybe time holds the key to everything.